1 00:02:18,281 --> 00:02:19,961 There are some who can drink and there are some 2 00:02:20,041 --> 00:02:22,361 who can't and even shouldn't drink. 3 00:02:22,841 --> 00:02:25,361 I belong to the ones who can drink. 4 00:02:27,121 --> 00:02:30,761 Well, yes. It means they can control it. 5 00:02:31,441 --> 00:02:33,121 It means, I control it. 6 00:02:34,321 --> 00:02:37,561 Sometimes she falls down, outside she's spread 7 00:02:39,361 --> 00:02:44,281 Neither speaks nor is quiet - maybe she can't. 8 00:02:45,521 --> 00:02:47,521 Her blood has reached 9 00:02:49,641 --> 00:02:51,641 The blue-coloured sight 10 00:02:52,401 --> 00:02:56,281 Once-a-year hybrid, a woman-of-a-bird. 11 00:02:58,001 --> 00:02:59,601 Why are you laughing? 12 00:03:01,761 --> 00:03:06,001 It's ok. You know 13 00:03:07,881 --> 00:03:10,041 I would colour it here and there 14 00:03:11,361 --> 00:03:15,121 and break it a bit, though. 15 00:03:28,281 --> 00:03:32,321 I love you, but I didn't plan that. 16 00:03:36,241 --> 00:03:38,641 And what did you plan? 17 00:03:43,481 --> 00:03:51,841 I was going to check the praised skills. 18 00:03:53,921 --> 00:03:55,761 And then...? 19 00:03:57,601 --> 00:04:03,441 Then I was going to fire you. 20 00:04:04,521 --> 00:04:06,441 You are speaking my language. 21 00:04:08,921 --> 00:04:11,521 No, you are speaking mine. 22 00:04:12,081 --> 00:04:14,041 So, who is speaking? 23 00:04:15,841 --> 00:04:17,161 Us. 24 00:04:23,321 --> 00:04:25,241 They aren't here. 25 00:04:30,401 --> 00:04:33,161 You should have made spare ones for me. You would have yours. 26 00:04:33,561 --> 00:04:34,921 Apocalypse. 27 00:04:35,681 --> 00:04:39,921 No, after the apocalypse there wouldn't be anything to tidy up. 28 00:04:43,841 --> 00:04:49,201 They're here! I couldn't find them for I put them in their right place. 29 00:04:50,961 --> 00:04:53,481 I love you no matter where you put the keys. 30 00:04:59,721 --> 00:05:03,401 Was or wasn't the apple which fell on Isaac Newton's head a trifle? 31 00:05:04,521 --> 00:05:06,321 A cosmic trifle. 32 00:05:06,401 --> 00:05:08,441 There are no other trifles, only the cosmic ones. 33 00:05:08,881 --> 00:05:11,121 You're thinking about trifles all the time. 34 00:05:11,241 --> 00:05:13,121 Objects are attacking you. 35 00:05:13,841 --> 00:05:15,881 That's good. Would you say that? 36 00:05:15,961 --> 00:05:17,041 Maybe. 37 00:05:17,721 --> 00:05:20,881 - Do you remember about dinner? - Yes, I do. 38 00:05:33,161 --> 00:05:36,481 Continuous thinking about trifles distracts everyday inquiries, 39 00:05:37,041 --> 00:05:40,161 and it distracts them in a ruinous way if one inquires with complete sentences. 40 00:05:40,441 --> 00:05:42,761 I, for instance, inquire with complete sentences. 41 00:05:43,001 --> 00:05:47,441 I cling to life desperately thanks to thinking in complete sentences. 42 00:05:47,561 --> 00:05:49,521 - Is it a kind of literary training? - No. 43 00:05:50,601 --> 00:05:53,401 Although I think that for literature 44 00:05:53,601 --> 00:05:56,241 thinking in complete sentences is of prime significance. 45 00:05:56,281 --> 00:05:59,641 But the differences between you and your protagonists are very small. 46 00:06:00,161 --> 00:06:01,961 They speak your language. 47 00:06:02,281 --> 00:06:05,441 But the subtleties between me and myself are small, too. 48 00:06:05,521 --> 00:06:08,321 Maybe it's even the other way round. 49 00:06:08,721 --> 00:06:11,321 Maybe it's the drunkard who is the narrator, 50 00:06:11,441 --> 00:06:14,961 and Jerzy is looking for premortal love in vain. 51 00:06:15,281 --> 00:06:17,721 Every time I tell you I've stopped drinking, 52 00:06:17,761 --> 00:06:21,521 I don't drink, or that I've sobered up for good 53 00:06:23,401 --> 00:06:25,321 and regained my feeling of time, 54 00:06:26,001 --> 00:06:29,921 you can feel free and not believe me. 55 00:06:31,921 --> 00:06:35,041 Whether I speak sober or drunk, 56 00:06:35,761 --> 00:06:38,721 I am, in my speaking, elusive even for myself. 57 00:06:39,761 --> 00:06:42,201 I'm elusive in my drinking, too. 58 00:06:43,161 --> 00:06:48,201 When I say I don't drink, for sure it is not true. 59 00:06:49,361 --> 00:06:53,401 But when I say I drink, I may be lying through my teeth. 60 00:06:56,361 --> 00:06:58,601 I'm the prince of elusiveness. 61 00:07:11,361 --> 00:07:14,561 Horrified, I think about the moment when last paragraphs, sentences, 62 00:07:14,641 --> 00:07:17,161 fragments of sentences will decay in my head 63 00:07:17,401 --> 00:07:21,801 and about illegible manuscripts, spectres and phantoms that will be left there. The end. 64 00:07:22,761 --> 00:07:27,761 A heroic-comic choice between dementia and death isn't funny for me at all. 65 00:07:28,401 --> 00:07:31,681 A shocking story about addiction and attempts to break oneself of it 66 00:07:31,761 --> 00:07:35,161 as well as a story about love that changes everything, now in bookshops. 67 00:07:43,081 --> 00:07:45,161 Such a success has to be celebrated. 68 00:07:45,641 --> 00:07:46,601 Thank you. 69 00:07:54,841 --> 00:07:58,041 So, how long have you know each other, Jerzy? Jurek? 70 00:07:58,161 --> 00:08:00,041 It's Jerzy. Almost a month. 71 00:08:02,001 --> 00:08:04,881 Almost a month and you already want to get married? 72 00:08:05,281 --> 00:08:06,321 Yes. 73 00:08:12,121 --> 00:08:14,121 I'm moving out from the dorm. 74 00:08:19,721 --> 00:08:22,761 Let's drink, the glass is soaking up. 75 00:08:26,281 --> 00:08:28,121 - You are older than her. - Mum! 76 00:08:28,241 --> 00:08:29,721 Yes, I am older. 77 00:08:36,321 --> 00:08:40,721 This is to Jerzy. A successful writer. 78 00:08:41,441 --> 00:08:43,601 I don't drink. I'm an alcoholic. 79 00:08:56,921 --> 00:08:58,961 So, how did you two meet? 80 00:09:00,761 --> 00:09:02,241 At the cash dispenser. 81 00:09:02,841 --> 00:09:04,041 Are you ok? 82 00:09:08,201 --> 00:09:09,601 Tell them. 83 00:09:14,521 --> 00:09:15,921 I was lying there, sloshed, 84 00:09:16,441 --> 00:09:18,241 someone took a photo of me, 85 00:09:18,921 --> 00:09:22,961 the flesh blinded me and I saw an angel. 86 00:09:23,321 --> 00:09:27,161 It's absolutely out of the question because I almost don't drink at all. 87 00:09:27,281 --> 00:09:30,841 Sometimes, at special occasions - a toast, 88 00:09:31,561 --> 00:09:34,561 a bottle... a glass of beer for dinner. 89 00:09:47,201 --> 00:09:49,161 Help! 90 00:10:00,481 --> 00:10:04,481 Do you want to drink yourself to death? 91 00:10:10,721 --> 00:10:13,401 I don't confirm it. I don't deny it. 92 00:10:14,201 --> 00:10:18,121 I don't want to drink myself to death. Not now, anyway. 93 00:10:21,081 --> 00:10:23,081 To tell you the truth, 94 00:10:23,161 --> 00:10:28,401 I would like to drink myself to death after a long and happy life. 95 00:10:30,241 --> 00:10:33,321 If somebody drinks as much as you do, 96 00:10:34,441 --> 00:10:37,961 they don't live a long and happy life. 97 00:10:41,401 --> 00:10:45,321 And can anyone live a long and happy life without drinking? 98 00:10:49,921 --> 00:10:52,801 Can you hear me? What the fuck are you doing anyway? 99 00:10:55,721 --> 00:10:58,721 Why didn't you come here? Yeah. 100 00:10:58,961 --> 00:11:03,241 And where the fuck were you on Sunday? What do you think, I...?! 101 00:11:08,001 --> 00:11:10,401 You have to drain the water from the aquarium to the bucket 102 00:11:10,401 --> 00:11:13,361 and then clean the sponge here in order not to kill the nitrifying bacteria. 103 00:11:13,401 --> 00:11:14,761 These are our fish. 104 00:11:15,241 --> 00:11:15,881 Ok. 105 00:11:16,201 --> 00:11:17,921 ...stop drinking for another person 106 00:11:18,001 --> 00:11:21,401 for there may be crisis of love and what then? 107 00:11:23,481 --> 00:11:27,401 You have to do it for yourself because, fuck, you have to have it in yourself. 108 00:11:27,441 --> 00:11:29,001 You have to find motivation. 109 00:11:29,081 --> 00:11:34,041 It's ok, both of you are drinking and then disappointment comes because 110 00:11:34,121 --> 00:11:37,601 fuck, you took the vows and it was supposed to be good... 111 00:11:37,721 --> 00:11:39,201 Fucking thank you. 112 00:11:40,241 --> 00:11:42,601 Fuck, you have to do it for yourself 113 00:11:42,801 --> 00:11:44,921 for there are fucking different phases of love. 114 00:11:48,241 --> 00:11:49,521 That's true. 115 00:11:50,361 --> 00:11:52,241 I'm a merited classic, 116 00:11:52,721 --> 00:11:56,441 and those who are here for the first time aren't debutants either. 117 00:11:57,041 --> 00:11:59,201 They are proficient authors. 118 00:12:00,121 --> 00:12:05,241 The real debutants, those who, right now, are opening their first bottle 119 00:12:05,361 --> 00:12:09,241 haven't the slightest idea that, one day, they may become classics, too. 120 00:12:23,081 --> 00:12:25,441 Waldek. An alcoholic. 121 00:12:27,281 --> 00:12:29,921 I'm a truck driver. 122 00:12:33,521 --> 00:12:35,561 "D' you sleep well at night, 123 00:12:36,441 --> 00:12:38,441 Are you afraid of death 124 00:12:39,401 --> 00:12:41,641 Has the turner been killed..." 125 00:12:41,961 --> 00:12:46,681 I worked for a company sending trucks full of fruits to the East. 126 00:12:46,681 --> 00:12:48,281 It was a profitable job. 127 00:12:48,881 --> 00:12:50,761 Listen, guys, I had the same. 128 00:12:51,001 --> 00:12:54,321 - Fuck, when was it made? - In seventy-seven. 129 00:12:54,361 --> 00:12:56,161 Clever guy, isn't he? 130 00:12:57,241 --> 00:12:59,481 I've got it. Another shot? 131 00:13:09,921 --> 00:13:14,721 I had to drink vodka with loaders, warehousemen... 132 00:13:14,801 --> 00:13:16,521 And! One, two and... 133 00:13:18,921 --> 00:13:21,641 ...and fruit buyers. 134 00:13:21,881 --> 00:13:26,561 My boss added the money that I spent on booze 135 00:13:26,641 --> 00:13:31,321 needed to pave my ways to clients to my salary. 136 00:13:31,401 --> 00:13:33,801 "Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you..." 137 00:13:33,921 --> 00:13:35,521 We'll talk at home. 138 00:13:38,201 --> 00:13:41,161 He was a good man although he didn't drink at all, 139 00:13:43,481 --> 00:13:47,481 therefore I'm really sorry for... 140 00:13:47,561 --> 00:13:48,481 ...what I did. 141 00:13:48,601 --> 00:13:49,921 ...what I did. 142 00:13:52,001 --> 00:13:54,521 I came to the storehouse totally drunk, 143 00:13:54,601 --> 00:14:00,481 I wanted to see the boss and to thank him for being such a great man... 144 00:14:05,121 --> 00:14:06,441 Sorry! 145 00:14:07,081 --> 00:14:09,121 And what did the boss do? 146 00:14:09,481 --> 00:14:12,801 - He brought me here. - What's the conclusion of the story? 147 00:14:19,201 --> 00:14:23,401 That I'm powerless over alcohol, 148 00:14:23,441 --> 00:14:27,921 that alcohol drives my life, 149 00:14:30,961 --> 00:14:33,121 that this is the end with drinking... 150 00:14:36,641 --> 00:14:39,121 - Who's next? - Maybe me. 151 00:14:40,561 --> 00:14:42,241 I'm Borys. I'm an alcoholic. 152 00:14:42,321 --> 00:14:47,081 The situation took place abroad, at a banquet after the festival. 153 00:14:47,161 --> 00:14:50,921 My film was awarded and it was a good reason to have a drink. 154 00:14:51,241 --> 00:14:56,121 I was the star of the evening and I had to drink with everybody. 155 00:14:56,241 --> 00:14:58,361 - Where is toilet? - To the right. 156 00:14:58,521 --> 00:15:00,081 - Congratulations! - Thank you. 157 00:15:00,161 --> 00:15:01,361 It was fantastic! 158 00:15:01,601 --> 00:15:03,521 I don't remeber when, for the first time... 159 00:15:04,201 --> 00:15:05,041 Smile...! 160 00:15:05,081 --> 00:15:07,241 ...I felt like taking a piss. 161 00:15:07,281 --> 00:15:10,881 Fuck, next time have to switch the fucking ball pen on. 162 00:15:13,161 --> 00:15:16,041 - Let's dance. - Of course. 163 00:15:16,081 --> 00:15:17,281 Fuck, I need to take a piss. 164 00:15:24,681 --> 00:15:27,921 John Silvergold would like to see you very much. 165 00:15:28,521 --> 00:15:30,881 - That's means right now, now. - Are you serious? 166 00:15:31,001 --> 00:15:32,601 I am deadly serious. 167 00:15:32,761 --> 00:15:37,441 Silvergold is one of the most powerful producers in Hollywood. 168 00:15:37,561 --> 00:15:42,081 If I wanted to see him, I would have to wait for the appointment 169 00:15:42,201 --> 00:15:45,281 for a year without any guarantee that it would happen. 170 00:15:45,361 --> 00:15:48,841 There is terror in your film which gradually transforms into horror 171 00:15:48,961 --> 00:15:51,681 and this horror shifts into even greater terror, 172 00:15:51,801 --> 00:15:55,881 in order to reach, in the final scene, the dimension of absurd... 173 00:15:56,241 --> 00:15:57,321 Awesome! 174 00:15:57,481 --> 00:15:59,721 ...the screen is emanating with such freezing temperatures 175 00:15:59,801 --> 00:16:02,321 that even the prosecutor cannot function without alcohol. 176 00:16:03,681 --> 00:16:07,601 The character is stunningly played by... erm... what's his name... 177 00:16:09,441 --> 00:16:11,041 Unbelievable. 178 00:16:11,041 --> 00:16:13,561 Calculate how much you spent daily on alcohol. 179 00:16:14,441 --> 00:16:17,561 Multiply it by 365 days in a year. 180 00:16:18,001 --> 00:16:22,401 The result multiply by all your drunk years. 181 00:16:22,441 --> 00:16:30,081 Add money spent on taxis, rounds you bought, courts, divorces, and alimony. 182 00:16:30,401 --> 00:16:36,401 Add all costs of drunken pranks, drunk-tanks, penalties, fines and court cases. 183 00:16:36,881 --> 00:16:41,681 Add money spent on damages, treatments, detoxes, and drying-outs. 184 00:16:42,121 --> 00:16:45,361 Add all the things you lost or gave away... 185 00:16:57,921 --> 00:17:00,161 The director 1.3 in his breath. 186 00:17:00,441 --> 00:17:02,161 - What's up? - Drunk. 187 00:17:02,481 --> 00:17:05,041 Fuck it. What are the procedures now? 188 00:17:05,081 --> 00:17:06,641 You're fucking out, go and pack yourself. 189 00:17:08,001 --> 00:17:09,481 Call Katarzyna. 190 00:17:09,881 --> 00:17:12,481 - What's going on? - Well... sloshed. 191 00:17:14,081 --> 00:17:16,081 - Let's go. - Fuck it! 192 00:17:18,001 --> 00:17:22,361 - You owe me 100 zloties. - He who sits at the end, laughs at the end. 193 00:17:30,961 --> 00:17:31,761 Get up scums. 194 00:17:38,641 --> 00:17:40,481 A dirk. 195 00:17:42,041 --> 00:17:46,001 It was too easy. Dirks are also worn by officers of the navy. 196 00:17:50,641 --> 00:17:54,681 He asked once a devil or a Pi�czuk. 197 00:17:57,881 --> 00:17:58,961 What? 198 00:17:59,121 --> 00:18:02,881 He asked once a devil or a Pi�czuk. 199 00:18:05,041 --> 00:18:09,121 Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, 200 00:18:09,761 --> 00:18:13,241 and whatever your labours and aspirations, 201 00:18:13,801 --> 00:18:18,001 in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. 202 00:18:18,841 --> 00:18:22,361 With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, 203 00:18:23,121 --> 00:18:25,441 it is still a beautiful world. 204 00:18:26,041 --> 00:18:27,641 Be cheerful. 205 00:18:27,681 --> 00:18:29,121 Strive to be happy. 206 00:18:37,401 --> 00:18:39,921 Drinking away all the washing machines of the world 207 00:18:40,001 --> 00:18:42,481 inevitably leads to negligence of temporality. 208 00:18:43,961 --> 00:18:48,361 In writing, negligence of temporality leads to graphomania. 209 00:18:48,761 --> 00:18:51,281 I was robbed and it started. 210 00:18:51,361 --> 00:18:52,561 What started? 211 00:18:54,801 --> 00:18:56,561 Drinking started. 212 00:18:59,641 --> 00:19:01,281 One started drinking. 213 00:19:01,481 --> 00:19:04,881 One drank?! Edek, who drank? One drank, he drank? 214 00:19:05,041 --> 00:19:09,721 One would totally slosh himself. One couldn't come to grips with this devil. 215 00:19:09,761 --> 00:19:13,001 For example, with the neighbour. How much I drank. 216 00:19:13,081 --> 00:19:14,721 One drank with the neighbour on and on. 217 00:19:15,561 --> 00:19:20,161 Start from the beginning once again, but instead of "one" say "l". 218 00:19:21,641 --> 00:19:27,521 Instead of "devil" - "alcohol". Instead of "on and on" - "every day". 219 00:19:27,921 --> 00:19:30,441 The work in the steelworks used to start at 6 a.m. 220 00:19:30,881 --> 00:19:36,601 I woke up in the darkness and realised I'd be late if I didn't get up. 221 00:19:37,361 --> 00:19:40,961 I had a beer in the off-licence on my way to the bus stop. 222 00:19:42,561 --> 00:19:46,841 I was a bit surprised that the shop was open. Then they opened at 7.00 a.m. 223 00:19:47,401 --> 00:19:52,561 I asked one fellow about the time, and he told me it was 6 o'clock. 224 00:19:59,441 --> 00:20:04,241 But 6:00 in the morning or 6:00 in the evening? 225 00:20:07,881 --> 00:20:09,881 6.00 at noon. 226 00:20:11,921 --> 00:20:14,321 "6 at noon" he said. 227 00:20:20,721 --> 00:20:24,721 My name is Joanna and I'm an alcoholic. 228 00:20:25,601 --> 00:20:27,961 I haven't come here because I'm bad, 229 00:20:28,281 --> 00:20:32,721 but because I'm ill and I need to be treated. 230 00:20:34,441 --> 00:20:36,761 The night I want to talk about, 231 00:20:36,841 --> 00:20:43,081 a stranger... some strangers appeared, but vodka is vodka. 232 00:20:43,161 --> 00:20:47,721 The time was passing by very quickly and there was even a game... 233 00:20:51,281 --> 00:20:52,321 It's not important. 234 00:20:52,841 --> 00:20:56,841 The train to Odessa - 60 roubles. 235 00:20:57,121 --> 00:21:04,121 In Istanbul we sell crystal glass and buy jeans, 236 00:21:05,681 --> 00:21:11,001 and in Syria - two and a half dollars for a Rolex. 237 00:21:12,801 --> 00:21:14,241 Fuck. 238 00:21:22,841 --> 00:21:25,441 - Who's he? - I don't know. 239 00:21:30,441 --> 00:21:34,441 The elbow next to the bone and a hole in the glass roof. 240 00:21:34,881 --> 00:21:39,201 Just like in a cartoon. And this is what happened. 241 00:21:42,921 --> 00:21:44,521 He fell out of the window. 242 00:21:44,721 --> 00:21:47,361 We were having fun, so nobody noticed anything. 243 00:21:47,481 --> 00:21:49,801 He managed to fix himself up and, despite all the fractures, 244 00:21:49,961 --> 00:21:51,601 came back to the party by himself... 245 00:21:52,121 --> 00:21:53,121 In Istanbul... 246 00:21:56,721 --> 00:21:58,041 In Istanbul... 247 00:21:58,321 --> 00:21:59,601 In Istanbul... 248 00:21:59,641 --> 00:22:02,401 ...that was the power booze gave us then. 249 00:22:02,561 --> 00:22:08,481 ...we sell crystal glasses... and buy jeans... 250 00:22:08,521 --> 00:22:13,041 He sobered up in the morning... and then he felt pain. 251 00:22:13,121 --> 00:22:20,841 ...and in Syria... in Syria two and a half dollars for a Rolex. 252 00:22:22,401 --> 00:22:25,961 The mouth must contradict the drink that has just went down the throat. 253 00:22:27,641 --> 00:22:29,481 The world must contradict addiction. 254 00:22:31,001 --> 00:22:32,721 Come in. 255 00:22:47,041 --> 00:22:48,481 How are things? 256 00:22:49,801 --> 00:22:51,041 As usual. 257 00:22:57,521 --> 00:23:00,441 - And how are things at home? - As usual, too. 258 00:23:00,641 --> 00:23:06,041 My name is El�bieta and I'm an alcoholic. 259 00:23:06,721 --> 00:23:09,241 I was shy as a child. 260 00:23:09,401 --> 00:23:13,081 My father used to motivate me to study. 261 00:23:13,321 --> 00:23:16,201 "�"?! I'm asking: is this how you write "�"?! 262 00:23:16,321 --> 00:23:18,121 Is this how you write "�", you moron? 263 00:23:20,761 --> 00:23:22,721 Beautiful. See what you've done? 264 00:23:23,441 --> 00:23:28,241 My future husband studied pharmacy with me. 265 00:23:32,401 --> 00:23:34,601 He did everything to be close to me. 266 00:23:37,561 --> 00:23:38,721 Where do you commute from? 267 00:23:38,801 --> 00:23:41,161 During the second or the third classes 268 00:23:41,281 --> 00:23:48,001 he said he got to love my narcotic reticence. 269 00:23:59,961 --> 00:24:01,921 And the liqueur... 270 00:24:08,081 --> 00:24:10,401 mint-flavoured, 271 00:24:10,641 --> 00:24:14,881 which he prepared on the chemist's spirits based on the old recipe, 272 00:24:15,361 --> 00:24:19,521 was a speciality which won over my father's favour. 273 00:24:20,161 --> 00:24:21,841 Come, have a taste! 274 00:24:24,481 --> 00:24:26,641 The colour sucks. 275 00:24:44,001 --> 00:24:45,841 The first glass in my life. 276 00:24:47,601 --> 00:24:52,561 My shyness vanished, the fear of nobody knows what disappeared. 277 00:24:53,281 --> 00:24:54,681 I said "yes". 278 00:24:56,561 --> 00:25:00,361 Before we made love for the first time, during the night duty, 279 00:25:00,721 --> 00:25:04,481 I had a glass of liqueur, too. 280 00:25:16,841 --> 00:25:26,161 Later, every time we had sex I had a glass of liqueur before. 281 00:25:40,161 --> 00:25:44,841 After a year I had a glass of liqueur also when we didn't make love. 282 00:25:48,761 --> 00:25:53,441 After two years I drank a glass of liqueur any time I could. 283 00:25:55,001 --> 00:25:59,041 After three years, my husband stopped making liqueur, 284 00:25:59,081 --> 00:26:02,921 but I didn't care anymore, because at that time, 285 00:26:03,041 --> 00:26:05,321 I already preferred to drink spirits. 286 00:26:05,441 --> 00:26:13,321 While drinking this chemist's spirits I gave birth to his four daughters. 287 00:26:16,201 --> 00:26:22,161 Probably, all of them got married quite well. 288 00:26:34,681 --> 00:26:36,681 There's nobody in the front, guys! 289 00:26:36,721 --> 00:26:38,641 What the fuck are you doing!? 290 00:26:39,081 --> 00:26:40,881 What's going on here?! 291 00:26:41,161 --> 00:26:43,041 Check the time! 292 00:26:43,121 --> 00:26:45,601 - It's quiet hours! - Right. To your rooms! 293 00:26:45,681 --> 00:26:46,921 Mietek! 294 00:26:47,281 --> 00:26:50,321 But it went on for it went in and then out. Lato 295 00:26:50,401 --> 00:26:52,321 Seventy-third minute. Domarski. 296 00:26:52,601 --> 00:26:55,121 Domarski stroke it, but the goal was scored by Lato. 297 00:26:55,201 --> 00:26:56,521 - True, Domarski stroke it... - Jerzy... 298 00:26:56,561 --> 00:27:00,121 - Lato's assist and Domarski strikes. - Jerzy, you have a guest. 299 00:27:14,001 --> 00:27:15,081 Do you remember me? 300 00:27:18,841 --> 00:27:20,281 I saw you at the cash dispenser. 301 00:27:22,321 --> 00:27:24,161 You were wearing a yellow dress. 302 00:27:24,601 --> 00:27:28,081 I have been cut off from the world for fifty-eight days. 303 00:27:28,801 --> 00:27:30,961 I haven't had any life problems. 304 00:28:04,881 --> 00:28:07,281 "I'll take my own life today... 305 00:28:12,761 --> 00:28:14,361 Eight... 306 00:28:16,761 --> 00:28:18,441 Let's have a drink..." 307 00:28:19,841 --> 00:28:21,961 Quiet hours in ten minutes. 308 00:28:27,641 --> 00:28:29,761 What, you're so big and can't blow properly? 309 00:28:29,841 --> 00:28:32,441 - Typical pre-leaving stress. - Anybody asked you? 310 00:28:34,241 --> 00:28:35,081 Once again. 311 00:28:35,521 --> 00:28:42,841 You will leave this place in a few days pumped up with vitamins, 312 00:28:43,961 --> 00:28:51,881 soothing substances and magnesium deficiency levelled off. 313 00:28:53,081 --> 00:28:56,161 You will leave this place on your own 314 00:28:57,041 --> 00:28:59,921 because we have given you a new lease of live, 315 00:29:01,161 --> 00:29:04,121 I don't even know which time in a row. 316 00:29:06,561 --> 00:29:09,681 And where, the fuck, will you direct your unerring steps? 317 00:29:10,361 --> 00:29:12,721 Do I have to ask you about that? 318 00:29:14,121 --> 00:29:18,161 No. This time it will be different. 319 00:29:30,081 --> 00:29:33,201 Mickiewicz's Lithuanian. 320 00:30:05,601 --> 00:30:07,561 - Good bye. - Good bye. 321 00:30:10,761 --> 00:30:12,201 Bye. 322 00:31:04,921 --> 00:31:06,241 ...and moved from the lake 323 00:31:06,321 --> 00:31:08,521 to the river for the fish didn't take the hook there. 324 00:31:08,641 --> 00:31:11,161 They threw away the equipment and fell asleep. 325 00:31:11,241 --> 00:31:15,281 They woke up at around 4 a.m. and it occurred that a car drove down the river. 326 00:31:15,361 --> 00:31:16,241 Fuck. 327 00:31:19,681 --> 00:31:24,401 When drunk, they mixed directions and threw the fishing rods on the road. 328 00:31:24,561 --> 00:31:26,961 48 zlotys, please. 329 00:31:36,161 --> 00:31:40,841 Having fortified myself heavily, really heavily, 330 00:31:42,921 --> 00:31:47,121 I began storing all my belongings on the roof of the shed 331 00:31:47,801 --> 00:31:51,281 which I could reach with my hand, 332 00:31:54,561 --> 00:31:58,921 first my briefcase 333 00:32:00,521 --> 00:32:03,081 then one bottle after another. 334 00:32:04,001 --> 00:32:06,081 Jurek, one zloty, please... 335 00:32:13,921 --> 00:32:16,881 One litre of Premium, a herbal vodka and four beers. 336 00:34:54,361 --> 00:34:57,481 To the touch, the auricle of my ear felt fresh, rough, cool, and juicy as a leaf. 337 00:35:47,241 --> 00:35:49,041 Doctor Swobodziczka. 338 00:35:50,241 --> 00:35:53,441 Doctor Swobodziczka drank horribly and insanely. 339 00:35:53,761 --> 00:35:58,001 In my hometown one can still hear stories about plagues he held back, 340 00:35:59,441 --> 00:36:04,841 horrible diseases he chased away, faultless diagnoses he made. 341 00:36:05,041 --> 00:36:08,801 He could clearly hear the rat's face of the disease hidden in the maze. 342 00:36:08,881 --> 00:36:09,681 Next one. 343 00:36:09,721 --> 00:36:12,201 His hands would shake when he was filling in the prescriptions but 344 00:36:12,241 --> 00:36:13,561 he would prescribe only... 345 00:36:13,601 --> 00:36:14,281 Quiet! 346 00:36:14,281 --> 00:36:15,201 ... what was necessary. 347 00:36:15,841 --> 00:36:16,801 Hospital. 348 00:36:16,921 --> 00:36:18,481 The fire of the addiction was burning down 349 00:36:18,521 --> 00:36:20,041 everything apart from his skills. 350 00:36:22,761 --> 00:36:24,361 I used to be ill with everything. 351 00:36:24,401 --> 00:36:25,161 Breathe. 352 00:36:25,201 --> 00:36:28,521 I was continuously breathing in the smell of medicine and alcohol. 353 00:36:29,281 --> 00:36:30,841 Don't breathe. 354 00:36:32,561 --> 00:36:34,041 Breathe. 355 00:36:36,241 --> 00:36:37,681 Get dressed. 356 00:36:41,281 --> 00:36:43,361 - Cough again. - He doesn't have a cough. 357 00:36:43,441 --> 00:36:46,681 He doesn't, but I do. I don't have the foggiest idea why. 358 00:36:46,761 --> 00:36:48,681 He will have a cough in two days. 359 00:36:49,241 --> 00:36:53,281 The cough will come in two days, and in seven it will be gone. 360 00:36:57,601 --> 00:36:59,761 - Juru�, how old are you? - He's nine. 361 00:37:00,401 --> 00:37:07,481 Nine. So it's high time you made your choices, some typing. 362 00:37:07,681 --> 00:37:09,601 Tell me, which ones do you prefer? 363 00:37:09,721 --> 00:37:11,881 The Protestants or the Catholics? 364 00:37:12,041 --> 00:37:13,121 The Catholics. 365 00:37:15,241 --> 00:37:18,441 - Get under the duvet. - It's a good choice. 366 00:37:18,521 --> 00:37:19,681 One more? 367 00:37:22,281 --> 00:37:29,121 Shit. I haven't taken my wallet and... I live nearby, so... 368 00:37:58,841 --> 00:38:00,401 Good bye. 369 00:38:14,041 --> 00:38:16,241 ...and they drank 0,7 of vodka and moved from the lake... 370 00:38:35,121 --> 00:38:38,521 There is no philosophy of drinking, there is only the technique of drinking. 371 00:38:40,201 --> 00:38:42,161 Generally, the sense of human existence 372 00:38:42,241 --> 00:38:46,321 is reduced to strenuous efforts to lift one's spirits. 373 00:38:46,961 --> 00:38:49,521 Ideology, for example, may serve this purpose, the same with 374 00:38:49,521 --> 00:38:54,641 religion, technical progress and material goods. 375 00:38:55,721 --> 00:38:58,561 Drinking may serve this purpose, too, 376 00:38:58,681 --> 00:39:03,961 and more precisely - the technique of drinking that is skilfully manipulated. 377 00:39:04,401 --> 00:39:07,321 In other words, it is about lifting one's bad mood up 378 00:39:07,401 --> 00:39:11,641 with proper technique of drinking. 379 00:39:15,121 --> 00:39:19,001 And what if one's mood is so bad that no technique of drinking helps? 380 00:39:20,641 --> 00:39:22,961 Or the technique of drinking becomes chaotic 381 00:39:23,601 --> 00:39:27,881 and worsens one's mood instead of lifting it up? 382 00:39:28,401 --> 00:39:30,681 I don't have such problems. 383 00:39:54,281 --> 00:39:59,961 Happy birthday to you... 384 00:40:02,961 --> 00:40:05,001 Kolumb is dying. 385 00:40:17,401 --> 00:40:18,881 How are you feeling? 386 00:40:22,441 --> 00:40:27,921 Perfect. A moment of weakness. I'm ok. 387 00:40:29,561 --> 00:40:34,441 And how do you think? Where is this weakness from? 388 00:40:34,881 --> 00:40:36,881 What would you connect it with? 389 00:40:37,481 --> 00:40:41,361 I have no idea. Maybe overwork? 390 00:40:42,041 --> 00:40:46,041 Exhaustion? I've recently had so much work. 391 00:40:47,681 --> 00:40:53,481 And don't you think that your condition might be connected with, 392 00:40:55,041 --> 00:41:02,841 let's say, the fact that you abuse alcohol? 393 00:41:03,841 --> 00:41:07,961 Absolutely not. It's out of the question. 394 00:41:08,081 --> 00:41:10,161 I almost don't drink at all. 395 00:41:10,841 --> 00:41:19,321 Sometimes, at special occasions, a toast, a glass of good wine for dinner. 396 00:41:21,281 --> 00:41:22,841 I see. 397 00:41:23,801 --> 00:41:28,201 Staying in the hospital and your bad disposition aren't, 398 00:41:30,441 --> 00:41:34,681 in any way, connected with alcohol. 399 00:41:35,721 --> 00:41:38,841 Although, indeed I can remember 400 00:41:40,361 --> 00:41:47,561 that during last celebration I had one glass too much. 401 00:41:47,761 --> 00:41:49,681 One glass too much! 402 00:42:05,361 --> 00:42:08,001 He admitted to it! One glass too much! 403 00:42:08,281 --> 00:42:12,281 The discovery of America! Christopher Columbus! 404 00:42:14,481 --> 00:42:15,841 And if I did it? 405 00:42:16,121 --> 00:42:19,361 If I poured all the alcohol bought in the all-night shop down the sink? 406 00:42:19,441 --> 00:42:21,161 What results would I achieve? 407 00:42:21,241 --> 00:42:24,081 You would have to take off this warm and comfortable tracksuit... 408 00:42:28,521 --> 00:42:30,561 The tracksuit was puked, pissed and shitted all over. 409 00:42:37,521 --> 00:42:38,361 It doesn't matter. 410 00:42:39,041 --> 00:42:41,321 You'd have to get dressed and put on your shoes again. 411 00:42:41,401 --> 00:42:44,001 And go to the shop or take a taxi to get there. 412 00:42:44,121 --> 00:42:47,521 ...those... bought... with my own... 413 00:42:50,161 --> 00:42:51,441 And it would be even worse. 414 00:43:02,321 --> 00:43:05,201 Because of the fury at myself and surrounding hypocrisy... 415 00:43:07,081 --> 00:43:10,001 I brought you some chicken. 416 00:43:10,441 --> 00:43:13,321 - What? - My mom makes great chicken. 417 00:43:13,681 --> 00:43:15,481 ...I would buy twice as much booze. 418 00:43:15,601 --> 00:43:17,761 One litre of Premium and a herbal vodka... 419 00:43:18,321 --> 00:43:20,681 You would take a lift and go to the tenth floor... 420 00:43:20,761 --> 00:43:21,561 There are only four. 421 00:43:23,201 --> 00:43:26,561 Playing a game of multiplying possible yet totally 422 00:43:26,641 --> 00:43:30,401 contradictory events takes eternity. 423 00:43:30,641 --> 00:43:33,281 That's why one has to face the truth, 424 00:43:33,361 --> 00:43:36,001 and pouring vodka down the sink is not the truth... 425 00:43:36,601 --> 00:43:38,841 ...drinking is the truth. 426 00:43:39,441 --> 00:43:41,401 ...drinking is the truth. 427 00:44:02,481 --> 00:44:05,881 My heavenly father and my drunken father and the drunken father of my drunken father 428 00:44:06,001 --> 00:44:10,241 and all my drunken great-grandfathers as well as all unrelated to me fatalists 429 00:44:10,361 --> 00:44:13,921 who have seen and who know where the Mighty Angel constellation lies, 430 00:44:14,041 --> 00:44:19,321 everybody who was born and died in its navy-golden glow, be hailed. 431 00:44:22,121 --> 00:44:23,401 Shit... 432 00:44:27,641 --> 00:44:28,721 Well... 433 00:44:33,361 --> 00:44:34,601 Right... 434 00:44:37,641 --> 00:44:45,321 OK. The amount you offered plus 20 zlotys. 435 00:44:48,521 --> 00:44:53,001 And one more thing. Money today, the horse tomorrow. 436 00:44:55,161 --> 00:44:57,281 I trust you. 437 00:44:59,921 --> 00:45:02,521 Your honour is well-known around here. 438 00:45:03,241 --> 00:45:04,801 Easy. 439 00:45:08,321 --> 00:45:09,601 See you tomorrow. 440 00:45:10,201 --> 00:45:12,041 Tomorrow in the morning. 441 00:46:38,241 --> 00:46:40,921 My grandfather, old Kubica, drinks and doesn't know what to do. 442 00:46:41,961 --> 00:46:45,681 He chases away thoughts about debts and his pawned farm. 443 00:46:45,841 --> 00:46:47,761 He wards off thoughts about the horse he's sold 444 00:46:47,841 --> 00:46:51,361 and the Galician buyer he will have to kill in the morning. 445 00:47:24,281 --> 00:47:26,761 My name is Jerzy and I'm an alcoholic. 446 00:47:29,921 --> 00:47:32,601 I've squandered away a whole lot of money in my life. 447 00:47:32,961 --> 00:47:35,121 I've spent a fortune on booze. 448 00:47:37,001 --> 00:47:38,041 What? 449 00:47:39,401 --> 00:47:40,801 What? 450 00:47:41,121 --> 00:47:44,481 I've never squandered away money saved up for fixing the washing machine... 451 00:47:50,281 --> 00:47:53,601 I'm making this confession not with proud in my heart but with abasement. 452 00:47:54,921 --> 00:47:58,281 The fact that I've never squandered away money saved up 453 00:47:58,361 --> 00:48:01,561 for fixing the washing machine is because... 454 00:48:02,121 --> 00:48:07,001 I've never allocated any money for fixing the washing machine. 455 00:48:17,081 --> 00:48:19,401 There is no powerlessness in your story. 456 00:48:19,561 --> 00:48:22,721 You're supposed to talk about yourself, not about washing machines. 457 00:48:23,881 --> 00:48:26,481 About how alcohol disturbed you in your life. 458 00:48:27,161 --> 00:48:30,601 You think you control everything and everybody together with drinking. 459 00:48:30,921 --> 00:48:33,881 If you are so smart, get out of the ward. 460 00:48:34,521 --> 00:48:35,561 We're wasting our time. 461 00:49:03,201 --> 00:49:07,921 Jerzy, you're incurable. 462 00:49:12,561 --> 00:49:14,401 Nobody is... 463 00:49:17,081 --> 00:49:19,321 especially the healthy ones. 464 00:49:21,481 --> 00:49:24,561 I appreciate your sense of humour and intelligence, 465 00:49:25,921 --> 00:49:30,921 but you Jerzy, you don't bode well. 466 00:49:33,161 --> 00:49:36,961 You have no will to improve. 467 00:49:45,801 --> 00:49:47,801 Wait. Did you hear that? 468 00:49:54,521 --> 00:49:56,241 Get her, fuck, out of here! 469 00:49:56,641 --> 00:49:57,841 Piss off! 470 00:49:58,401 --> 00:50:00,641 What the fuck! What's happened!? What's going on!? 471 00:50:00,681 --> 00:50:02,601 - Fuck happened! - Quiet! 472 00:50:03,041 --> 00:50:05,321 - What's the problem? - Fucking copy's the problem! 473 00:50:05,401 --> 00:50:09,881 - She fucking stole my profile! - Fucking stole? I'll fucking kill you... 474 00:50:12,761 --> 00:50:18,361 It happened on 21 December, 1985. 475 00:50:21,681 --> 00:50:23,961 I woke up in the middle of the night. 476 00:50:24,361 --> 00:50:29,361 I had a terrible hangover. I was sweating and trembling all over. 477 00:50:30,561 --> 00:50:32,361 I didn't have a penny. 478 00:50:32,521 --> 00:50:36,601 I knew my husband, who was sleeping in another room, 479 00:50:39,121 --> 00:50:40,561 had money. 480 00:50:43,401 --> 00:50:46,521 I found 50 zlotys. 481 00:50:53,281 --> 00:50:54,921 I felt much better. 482 00:50:55,641 --> 00:50:58,041 But, unexpectedly, I came up with the idea 483 00:50:58,681 --> 00:51:02,241 that I might want some more stock for the rest of the night. 484 00:51:04,521 --> 00:51:06,161 What do you want? 485 00:51:06,561 --> 00:51:11,441 This characteristic courage woke up in me, and with no precautions, 486 00:51:11,481 --> 00:51:13,961 or even with certain bravado, switching on the light in the hall, 487 00:51:16,681 --> 00:51:24,241 I boldly entered the flat and took a bottle of raspberry juice from the cupboard. 488 00:51:25,681 --> 00:51:29,001 I took it under consideration that I might be soundly asleep and I wanted my husband, 489 00:51:29,681 --> 00:51:35,721 in case he woke up earlier in the morning and found a bottle next to my bed, 490 00:51:36,321 --> 00:51:40,521 to think it was sheer juice. 491 00:51:44,361 --> 00:51:46,721 In the mor... 492 00:51:49,321 --> 00:51:52,961 in the morning my husband noticed neither the bottle 493 00:51:53,081 --> 00:51:54,881 nor the fact that I had to go out to the all-night shop, 494 00:51:55,081 --> 00:51:59,281 - but he... fucking... noticed... - Calm down. 495 00:52:00,001 --> 00:52:01,641 ...that he didn't have 50 zlotys, 496 00:52:03,241 --> 00:52:05,601 which he started to, loudy, complain about. 497 00:52:15,561 --> 00:52:17,321 How much did she take from you? 498 00:52:33,961 --> 00:52:35,761 50 zlotys. 499 00:52:46,441 --> 00:52:48,041 Clean it. 500 00:52:51,041 --> 00:52:56,561 I got dressed, packed and this is how my ramble around the country started, 501 00:52:56,601 --> 00:52:58,561 a ramble which was 502 00:53:00,601 --> 00:53:02,881 a fucking gigantic drunken binge. 503 00:53:06,881 --> 00:53:11,641 I'm very sorry I was robbed of my life and that, 504 00:53:13,361 --> 00:53:16,521 - fuck, I'm going to hear my story... - Calm down or I'll throw you out! 505 00:53:16,681 --> 00:53:19,201 ...from this bitch and I don't know if I'm going to take it. 506 00:53:19,201 --> 00:53:20,841 - I was fucking robbed and... - Calm down! 507 00:53:21,361 --> 00:53:26,121 ...when I hear someone reading about my life, I get fucking mad! 508 00:53:26,121 --> 00:53:28,201 I'll throw you out! Read it. 509 00:53:30,361 --> 00:53:35,161 It happened in mid-November 1997. 510 00:53:36,081 --> 00:53:40,241 I woke up at 3 o'clock in the morning and I was in a horrible state. 511 00:53:41,441 --> 00:53:44,841 The hangover was terrible because I had been drinking all day before. 512 00:53:50,241 --> 00:53:52,401 I had absolutely no money. 513 00:53:53,041 --> 00:53:56,001 I was living with my sister and her husband 514 00:53:56,281 --> 00:53:59,241 and I had a feeling that my brother-in-law had money, 515 00:54:04,401 --> 00:54:07,961 for he always had money because he didn't drink at all. 516 00:54:09,481 --> 00:54:12,801 I didn't know what bank-note I took 517 00:54:14,921 --> 00:54:19,201 and I was afraid its value would be too low, 518 00:54:19,921 --> 00:54:24,401 but when it occurred that I was lucky and took 100 zlotys, 519 00:54:25,681 --> 00:54:30,121 I was very happy at the beginning because I had more than I needed, 520 00:54:30,241 --> 00:54:36,521 but then I was afraid because it was possible that my brother-in-law 521 00:54:36,641 --> 00:54:39,721 would notice the absence of such an amount. 522 00:54:40,081 --> 00:54:42,841 My quandaries vanished soon. 523 00:54:42,921 --> 00:54:44,081 A champagne. 524 00:54:52,681 --> 00:54:55,281 Two quarters and a coke. Half a litre. 525 00:55:05,121 --> 00:55:12,401 I was aiming at having exactly half of the bottle full 526 00:55:14,641 --> 00:55:16,561 and I did it. 527 00:55:41,681 --> 00:55:45,961 In the morning, it occurred that my brother-in-law didn't notice 528 00:55:46,041 --> 00:55:48,281 the lack of the 100 zloty bank-note 529 00:55:48,361 --> 00:55:52,361 but my sister started a fight for no reason. 530 00:55:52,801 --> 00:55:54,161 Jesus! 531 00:55:54,281 --> 00:55:55,841 Fuck! 532 00:55:59,241 --> 00:56:00,641 Get the fuck out of here! 533 00:56:03,841 --> 00:56:05,281 - Get out of here! - What?! 534 00:56:05,401 --> 00:56:07,721 Without saying a word, I got packed and left... 535 00:56:07,881 --> 00:56:11,401 Enough! Fucking enough! Get the fuck out of here! 536 00:56:11,481 --> 00:56:13,161 ...this unfriendly home. 537 00:56:13,201 --> 00:56:15,401 Get the fuck out of here! 538 00:56:22,641 --> 00:56:24,281 I was calm. 539 00:56:25,681 --> 00:56:31,281 I had about 40 zlotys left and a quarter-litre at the bottom of my bag. 540 00:56:31,801 --> 00:56:33,441 Shame on you! 541 00:56:38,961 --> 00:56:41,121 I don't know where my ramble led me to. 542 00:56:41,161 --> 00:56:44,121 I don't know how long my drunken binge lasted. 543 00:56:44,641 --> 00:56:47,001 I don't even know how I ended up here. 544 00:56:47,801 --> 00:56:53,681 Anyway, now I want to stop drinking very much. 545 00:56:58,241 --> 00:57:00,241 Anybody would like to say something? 546 00:57:00,881 --> 00:57:06,961 Copying other people's works is evil, however it is not ultimate evil. 547 00:57:07,601 --> 00:57:14,561 Bullshit. In 1985 it was impossible to buy a bottle of vodka for 50 zlotys. 548 00:57:14,681 --> 00:57:16,481 Sure? So what the fuck did I buy it for? 549 00:57:18,361 --> 00:57:23,481 Half a litre cost 103 zlotys. Wary�ski needed 3 zlotys more to smile. 550 00:57:25,041 --> 00:57:29,601 I'm sorry but in 1985 there were no all-night shops. 551 00:57:30,441 --> 00:57:32,921 Alcohol could be bought in a booze den. 552 00:57:36,241 --> 00:57:40,881 I'd like to draw your attention to the nonsense of copying each other's works. 553 00:57:44,961 --> 00:57:48,281 Well, the dispute is settled in favour of Joanna. 554 00:57:48,641 --> 00:57:51,561 The session is finished, and I want to see you in my office in an hour. 555 00:58:02,281 --> 00:58:03,281 What is this? 556 00:58:03,961 --> 00:58:06,681 Everybody has to write about how it was when they were still drinking. 557 00:58:06,761 --> 00:58:09,161 A method to stop drinking. 558 00:58:11,641 --> 00:58:14,721 First you write and then you read. 559 00:58:14,961 --> 00:58:16,881 A diary of emotions. 560 00:58:17,001 --> 00:58:21,201 Everybody can fucking speak, but there is nobody to write it down. 561 00:58:21,321 --> 00:58:23,641 And you're a writer, ain't you? 562 00:58:23,721 --> 00:58:26,721 One of the points of the therapy. Everybody has to do it. 563 00:58:26,801 --> 00:58:29,521 The thing is, I don't remember Christmas carols 564 00:58:29,601 --> 00:58:36,041 and additionally I noticed that I defecated in my wardrobe a day before. 565 00:58:41,041 --> 00:58:43,481 I'm not interested. 566 00:58:56,841 --> 00:58:58,561 Take the whole pack. 567 00:59:00,641 --> 00:59:02,601 Take the pen, too. 568 00:59:03,841 --> 00:59:07,761 I write only with a ball pen because I get pissed off about blots. 569 00:59:17,041 --> 00:59:18,881 Does it have to be about taking a dump? 570 00:59:19,961 --> 00:59:21,881 No, it doesn't. 571 00:59:26,121 --> 00:59:28,401 So about puke, maybe? 572 00:59:29,961 --> 00:59:33,361 I remember I threw up with pepper vodka during Gierek's times, 573 00:59:34,081 --> 00:59:41,281 with ration-card vodka during Solidarity, during martial law with moonshine, 574 00:59:42,041 --> 00:59:45,961 and in Wa��sa and Kwa�niewski's times with herbal vodka. 575 00:59:49,561 --> 00:59:51,681 I wanted it to be political. 576 00:59:53,921 --> 00:59:58,961 My drinking was an attempt to escape reality, 577 00:59:59,041 --> 01:00:02,081 mostly hopelessness... hopelessness of everyday life. 578 01:00:02,401 --> 01:00:06,841 To escape lack of freedom and first of all pessimism. 579 01:00:08,401 --> 01:00:10,641 The worse it was during the period 580 01:00:10,881 --> 01:00:13,081 of the People's Republic of Poland, the more one drank. 581 01:00:14,321 --> 01:00:17,801 We can argue whether such mass consumption of alcohol 582 01:00:18,241 --> 01:00:20,841 constituted a way of deliberately inducing the society to drink 583 01:00:20,961 --> 01:00:27,001 or maybe a cultural element of our Sa... Sarmatian customs. 584 01:00:30,601 --> 01:00:35,801 The fact is that one could do nothing without a bottle of vodka. 585 01:00:37,601 --> 01:00:39,081 I didn't come here because I am... 586 01:00:39,561 --> 01:00:45,241 In my days one studied not to learn anything but to avoid the army. 587 01:00:46,401 --> 01:00:48,481 One wouldn't attend any classes at all. 588 01:00:48,601 --> 01:00:50,761 I was the secretary of their minds. 589 01:00:51,761 --> 01:00:55,561 I shaped their languages so that they would acquire 590 01:00:55,641 --> 01:00:59,321 this necessary thus authentic roughness of style. 591 01:00:59,361 --> 01:01:02,241 If those modes of expression mattered for anyone 592 01:01:02,281 --> 01:01:03,721 and if they influenced anyone... 593 01:01:13,201 --> 01:01:16,801 ...I was this person. It wasn't them, it was me. 594 01:01:19,681 --> 01:01:21,121 What story? 595 01:01:22,721 --> 01:01:24,841 I've killed a man. 596 01:01:55,961 --> 01:01:58,521 Waldek! Waldek! 597 01:02:15,241 --> 01:02:18,841 But did he really killed him with a telephone or you invented it? 598 01:02:18,881 --> 01:02:21,001 I don't know. I don't remember. One shot. 599 01:02:23,201 --> 01:02:25,721 What for? We've agreed. 600 01:02:30,001 --> 01:02:36,401 100g of methylated spirits, Balsam of Canaan. 601 01:03:07,161 --> 01:03:09,081 Having fortified myself heavily, 602 01:03:10,401 --> 01:03:12,321 really heavily... 603 01:03:17,641 --> 01:03:22,001 Let's talk about world drunken literature. Nabokov. 604 01:03:23,681 --> 01:03:27,921 Damn dark inquisitiveness and finessed use of ice-cold form 605 01:03:27,961 --> 01:03:31,481 ideally predestined him to write a fictional study of addiction. 606 01:03:32,241 --> 01:03:38,521 Unfortunately, rumours about the writer's alcoholism proved to be false. 607 01:03:38,601 --> 01:03:40,081 And Erofeev? 608 01:03:40,241 --> 01:03:47,241 The prominent shock worker Alexey Stakhanov, would go to the toilet 609 01:03:47,361 --> 01:03:52,881 for number one twice a day and for number two once in two days. 610 01:03:54,921 --> 01:03:57,321 And when he was drunk... 611 01:03:57,441 --> 01:04:00,361 ... he would go for number one four times a day and not even once for number two. 612 01:04:15,081 --> 01:04:24,081 To the touch, the auricle of my ear felt fresh, rough, cool, and juicy as a leaf. 613 01:04:43,241 --> 01:04:47,521 Calculate how many times per year the prominent shock worker Aleksei Stakhanov 614 01:04:48,401 --> 01:04:54,801 would go to the toilet for number one and how many times for number two, 615 01:04:56,601 --> 01:04:59,761 considering that he was drunk three hundred and twelve days a year. 616 01:05:04,001 --> 01:05:06,041 So, how many? 617 01:05:32,081 --> 01:05:34,321 How do you spell "vanished"? 618 01:05:35,041 --> 01:05:37,201 My shyness vanished... 619 01:05:40,681 --> 01:05:42,321 - Shall we have a word? - Later. 620 01:05:42,441 --> 01:05:43,561 Get the fuck out of here. 621 01:06:33,121 --> 01:06:34,921 Aleksei Stakhanov. 622 01:06:36,001 --> 01:06:39,161 When he was drunk he would go four times a day for number one, 623 01:06:41,441 --> 01:06:44,441 and not even once for number two. 624 01:06:49,641 --> 01:06:57,481 Calculate how many times he would go for number one and how many for number two. 625 01:06:59,681 --> 01:07:01,121 I don't know. 626 01:07:15,761 --> 01:07:17,641 Will you marry me? 627 01:07:18,641 --> 01:07:19,801 Do we know each other that well? 628 01:07:20,681 --> 01:07:22,001 Better than that. 629 01:07:34,641 --> 01:07:37,281 If you drink when you're awake and when you're asleep, 630 01:07:37,441 --> 01:07:40,241 you probably don't know what it is like to be awake. 631 01:07:40,721 --> 01:07:45,521 Having fortified myself heavily, really heavily, 632 01:07:47,441 --> 01:07:51,961 I began storing all my belongings on the roof of the shed... 633 01:07:52,601 --> 01:07:56,961 Almost everybody feels like it, but they don't know it. 634 01:07:58,361 --> 01:08:03,521 300 g of "Sadko" shampoo, 70 g of dandruff 635 01:08:03,601 --> 01:08:08,241 treatment, 20g of athlete's foot remedy. 636 01:08:11,161 --> 01:08:13,801 If you drink when you're awake and when you're asleep... 637 01:08:26,561 --> 01:08:28,801 So, I spent all night... 638 01:08:29,441 --> 01:08:33,921 Every night I drank half a liter of whiskey and twelve beers. 639 01:08:34,401 --> 01:08:39,961 Till dawn I was smoking cheap cigars, pounding on the typewriter, 640 01:08:40,081 --> 01:08:43,961 drinking, and listening to the classical music on the radio. 641 01:08:44,041 --> 01:08:46,001 My goal was ten... 642 01:09:10,281 --> 01:09:15,281 Oh, it's open. Can you hear me? The door is open. 643 01:09:21,121 --> 01:09:25,801 The train was late, you might have come for me. 644 01:09:40,521 --> 01:09:46,721 Jerzy! Jerzy! Can you hear me? 645 01:09:49,761 --> 01:09:51,721 Where's your phone? 646 01:09:56,081 --> 01:10:00,361 Is anybody here? Your neighbour reported you flooded her. 647 01:10:00,641 --> 01:10:02,601 I've entered because the door is open. 648 01:10:06,961 --> 01:10:10,321 O shit! Come on, mate! 649 01:10:17,761 --> 01:10:19,161 Delirium! 650 01:10:20,441 --> 01:10:23,761 Take it away! Take it away! 651 01:10:25,561 --> 01:10:28,081 Take it away! Take it away! 652 01:10:32,161 --> 01:10:35,521 Just a sec. Just a sec. Calm down. There, there... 653 01:10:41,001 --> 01:10:42,801 There's no... There's no... There's no... 654 01:10:43,201 --> 01:10:47,521 Everything's fine. Don't be afraid. There. There. 655 01:11:00,121 --> 01:11:01,681 Aleksei Stakhanov. 656 01:11:02,761 --> 01:11:06,561 When he was drunk he would go four times a day for number one, 657 01:11:08,441 --> 01:11:11,321 and not even once for number two. 658 01:11:15,881 --> 01:11:18,241 Calculate how many times... 659 01:11:19,801 --> 01:11:20,441 Well? 660 01:13:08,961 --> 01:13:12,561 OK. Wait, wait... I must say something. 661 01:13:16,201 --> 01:13:17,761 Yes, but... 662 01:13:18,401 --> 01:13:22,041 Wait, wait... I must say something. Fuck, wait! 663 01:13:31,761 --> 01:13:33,561 - Listen to me! - I'm listening. 664 01:13:33,681 --> 01:13:39,081 And I need... I also need attention. I need you to tell me... 665 01:13:39,481 --> 01:13:41,481 Jurek, you have left the keys in the door again. 666 01:13:42,081 --> 01:13:45,881 Excuse me, I'm in. You've ordered alcohol. 667 01:13:49,241 --> 01:13:50,641 Oh, fuck... 668 01:13:57,241 --> 01:13:59,841 And you can see flocks of white-winged washing machines 669 01:13:59,921 --> 01:14:04,321 gliding over watery heaven like squadrons of papal helicopters. 670 01:14:12,081 --> 01:14:14,321 You understand you were given more than others... 671 01:14:29,241 --> 01:14:30,521 This time it'll be different. 672 01:14:43,201 --> 01:14:47,121 No, doctor. This time it'll be different. 673 01:15:13,641 --> 01:15:15,041 Get the fuck out of here. 674 01:15:22,281 --> 01:15:23,601 Everybody get the fuck out of here! 675 01:15:26,881 --> 01:15:29,601 Are there any moments when you don't drink? 676 01:15:33,641 --> 01:15:35,841 No. I think I don't drink when... 677 01:15:36,921 --> 01:15:38,881 200 g of Zhiguli beer... 678 01:16:37,481 --> 01:16:40,441 If I had been sober then, I wouldn't have seen you at the cash dispenser. 679 01:16:44,001 --> 01:16:46,441 I wouldn't have thought you were beautiful and wise. 680 01:16:48,561 --> 01:16:50,481 It wouldn't have crossed my mind 681 01:16:52,481 --> 01:16:55,001 that you are the greatest love of my life. 682 01:16:55,881 --> 01:17:00,481 ...that you are the greatest love of my life. 683 01:17:01,921 --> 01:17:07,001 Such fiery passions that wind up at the alco ward aren't worth a shit. 684 01:17:16,481 --> 01:17:19,361 If I had met you twenty years ago, I wouldn't drink at all. 685 01:17:21,281 --> 01:17:25,721 Twenty years ago I was, something like, seven. 686 01:17:37,321 --> 01:17:41,001 - I drink because I'm shy. - I drink because I'm afraid. 687 01:17:41,401 --> 01:17:43,441 I drink, because it's warm, I drink because it's cold. 688 01:17:43,521 --> 01:17:46,321 I drink because I'm sad. I drink when I'm happy. 689 01:17:46,401 --> 01:17:49,161 I have been drinking since the Pole became the Pope. 690 01:17:49,921 --> 01:17:50,961 I drink because I like it. 691 01:17:51,041 --> 01:17:54,921 When Poland was winning and I was drinking when Poland was losing. 692 01:17:55,121 --> 01:17:57,481 To soothe my nerves. When I listen to Mozart. 693 01:17:59,041 --> 01:18:00,881 I drink when I read Leibnitz. 694 01:18:00,961 --> 01:18:04,161 Because of sexual ecstasy and because of sexual hunger. 695 01:18:04,241 --> 01:18:06,041 I'm too ordinary, I need some frenzy. 696 01:18:06,361 --> 01:18:07,721 I drink because everybody drinks. 697 01:18:08,041 --> 01:18:10,961 When we were winning and when we were beaten. 698 01:18:11,281 --> 01:18:12,761 Because my fianc� drinks. 699 01:18:13,321 --> 01:18:18,121 Because I'm pissed off... my boss pisses me off. 700 01:18:18,201 --> 01:18:22,281 I drink because of nostalgia. And because of excessive fulfilment. 701 01:18:22,841 --> 01:18:25,121 She fucking even made those chickens for him. 702 01:18:25,361 --> 01:18:27,001 I drink while I'm drinking the first glass 703 01:18:27,081 --> 01:18:29,201 and I drink while I'm drinking the last one, 704 01:18:30,681 --> 01:18:35,281 and then I drink even more for I've never drunk the last glass. 705 01:19:14,201 --> 01:19:16,321 I'm kindly asking when she'll be back. 706 01:19:17,641 --> 01:19:19,161 And when did she leave? 707 01:19:20,921 --> 01:19:24,241 Can I leave a... Hello. 708 01:19:25,161 --> 01:19:26,281 Hello! 709 01:19:32,761 --> 01:19:35,041 Do you drink during the intervals in writing or do you write 710 01:19:35,081 --> 01:19:36,361 during the intervals in drinking? 711 01:19:39,041 --> 01:19:40,801 Did you forbid her to come here? 712 01:19:56,481 --> 01:19:58,441 It'll fucking burn down. 713 01:20:02,721 --> 01:20:04,081 Closer. 714 01:20:33,441 --> 01:20:35,601 My eagles. 715 01:20:41,761 --> 01:20:44,681 You know what I wish you. 716 01:20:47,921 --> 01:20:53,481 Stop drinking. 717 01:20:56,161 --> 01:20:58,081 Soup is the most important. 718 01:20:58,761 --> 01:21:02,321 Three kinds of soup were served in my home: 719 01:21:04,161 --> 01:21:08,481 borsch with ravioli, mushroom soup and fish soup. 720 01:21:10,041 --> 01:21:14,481 God is born and night is shaken... 721 01:21:15,121 --> 01:21:17,681 What, don't you have sugar for your husband at home? 722 01:21:19,521 --> 01:21:20,961 You're turning our home into an inn. 723 01:21:23,561 --> 01:21:26,601 - Swine. - Fuck it. 724 01:21:33,721 --> 01:21:38,641 God is born and night is shaken, 725 01:21:38,761 --> 01:21:42,681 He, the Heaven's King, lies naked. 726 01:21:43,641 --> 01:21:48,961 The living World knows brightness darkened 727 01:21:49,041 --> 01:21:53,561 He, the Limitless, takes limits. 728 01:21:53,961 --> 01:21:58,961 Born disdained yet worship given, 729 01:21:59,441 --> 01:22:04,721 Mortal yet the Lord Eternal, 730 01:22:05,281 --> 01:22:10,201 Now indeed the Word made flesh, 731 01:22:10,641 --> 01:22:15,961 Has come on Earth to dwell among us. 732 01:22:16,481 --> 01:22:21,481 Born disdained yet worship given, 733 01:22:22,201 --> 01:22:27,201 Mortal yet the Lord Eternal, 734 01:22:28,481 --> 01:22:32,841 ...and he asks me whether it is 6 in the morning or in the afternoon. 735 01:22:33,521 --> 01:22:35,841 And I tell him it's 6 at noon. 736 01:22:38,881 --> 01:22:42,081 Born disdained yet worship given, 737 01:22:42,801 --> 01:22:47,321 Mortal yet the Lord Eternal... 738 01:22:47,801 --> 01:22:52,841 Now indeed the Word made flesh, 739 01:22:53,321 --> 01:22:58,601 Has come on Earth to dwell among us. 740 01:24:21,481 --> 01:24:23,441 I also start from doing the washing. 741 01:24:25,001 --> 01:24:27,881 It means from letting in some air and doing the washing. 742 01:24:27,961 --> 01:24:30,041 And then you have to do the vacuuming. 743 01:24:30,841 --> 01:24:33,041 And change the curtains. 744 01:24:33,321 --> 01:24:35,041 Get rid of the bottles. 745 01:24:35,121 --> 01:24:39,321 Tidy up all the nooks and look for any remaining traces of abasement. 746 01:24:39,601 --> 01:24:43,041 Fuck, what a mess. Has your mother seen it? 747 01:24:43,361 --> 01:24:46,361 Everybody has the right to a little celebration after hard work. 748 01:24:49,801 --> 01:24:55,321 Thirsty, we cover it, drink it and lose consciousness... 749 01:24:57,041 --> 01:25:01,321 ...which we regain where? If you remember? 750 01:25:04,481 --> 01:25:09,001 Here, at the alco ward. 751 01:25:24,001 --> 01:25:25,641 And have they eaten a Black man here... 752 01:25:25,921 --> 01:25:27,761 And are you afraid of death 753 01:25:48,081 --> 01:25:50,361 Fuck, open the door. 754 01:25:54,041 --> 01:25:57,401 Open the door. I want to tell you one thing. 755 01:25:57,841 --> 01:26:00,961 There is no other trifle but the cosmic one. 756 01:26:09,401 --> 01:26:10,761 What the fuck are you looking at? 757 01:26:16,281 --> 01:26:20,121 Fuck. Fucking scum. 758 01:26:29,241 --> 01:26:30,641 Hi. 759 01:26:31,561 --> 01:26:35,321 Do you check it with a computer? Fuck it. 760 01:26:35,401 --> 01:26:38,441 - What are the procedures now? - Shoelaces. 761 01:26:44,041 --> 01:26:48,961 Humankind shouldn't feel threatened in its principles. 762 01:27:03,801 --> 01:27:06,001 I know you. 763 01:27:11,321 --> 01:27:14,241 You live in the back of the off-licence shop. 764 01:27:15,881 --> 01:27:19,881 Yes. It's me. 765 01:27:22,561 --> 01:27:24,041 I'm the measure of your decline. 766 01:27:41,641 --> 01:27:43,761 I grieve at my fate, too. 767 01:27:52,081 --> 01:27:53,241 Don't force yourself to drink. 768 01:27:54,921 --> 01:27:56,761 Force yourself to non-force. 769 01:28:06,361 --> 01:28:09,001 The effort is far less than you think. 770 01:28:09,241 --> 01:28:10,601 - The thing is... - Are you coming in? 771 01:29:59,961 --> 01:30:03,201 - Hi. - Hi. 772 01:30:03,921 --> 01:30:05,401 How are you? 773 01:30:05,601 --> 01:30:08,561 As usual. Have you got a cigarette? 774 01:30:15,001 --> 01:30:17,961 - How are you? - As usual, too. 775 01:30:18,041 --> 01:30:19,441 Thanks. See you. 776 01:30:45,121 --> 01:30:47,281 - Hello. May I? - Sure. 777 01:30:52,881 --> 01:30:54,241 Thank you. 778 01:31:31,921 --> 01:31:35,081 - 32zlotys. - I don't have it. 779 01:31:36,201 --> 01:31:38,801 Can you give me a cigarette? 780 01:32:31,081 --> 01:32:33,761 Why did he escape if one can leave this place? 781 01:32:33,761 --> 01:32:36,201 - I don't know. - Bring me his documents. 782 01:32:36,281 --> 01:32:39,281 - Excuse me. - Wait. 783 01:32:51,481 --> 01:32:53,401 I came up with the idea not to drink. 784 01:32:54,881 --> 01:32:59,721 Really? How long? A month? A year? 785 01:33:01,521 --> 01:33:03,401 I came up with the idea not to drink at all. 786 01:33:20,801 --> 01:33:23,361 I don't have to tell you where you'll wind up 787 01:33:23,601 --> 01:33:25,481 because you are already there. 788 01:33:33,521 --> 01:33:36,561 We had it in our store. Your coat is in the cloakroom. 789 01:33:36,601 --> 01:33:37,961 Thank you. 790 01:33:44,361 --> 01:33:48,961 My name is Jerzy. I'm an alcoholic. 791 01:33:51,681 --> 01:33:54,081 I'm powerless over vodka. 792 01:33:58,001 --> 01:34:00,201 I've lost control over my life. 793 01:34:02,761 --> 01:34:05,201 God, give me cheerfulness, 794 01:34:05,361 --> 01:34:09,881 to be able to accept what I cannot change, 795 01:34:11,041 --> 01:34:14,761 courage to change what I can change 796 01:34:15,241 --> 01:34:19,281 and wisdom to know one from another. 797 01:34:21,881 --> 01:34:28,761 You have to find out when and where your natural instincts got warped. 798 01:34:31,041 --> 01:34:35,721 You have to realise the disasters it caused not only to you, 799 01:34:36,281 --> 01:34:40,521 but also to your closest ones. 800 01:34:42,961 --> 01:34:47,841 Nevertheless, even the most conscientious, honest evaluation of yourselves 801 01:34:47,921 --> 01:34:51,801 will not be enough if you do it in solitude. 802 01:34:52,321 --> 01:34:54,641 In order to learn anything about yourselves, 803 01:34:54,721 --> 01:34:59,041 in order to help yourselves you have to come out. 804 01:34:59,841 --> 01:35:04,001 You have to want to accept help from outside. 805 01:35:04,641 --> 01:35:09,401 How? By an honest conversation with everybody here. 806 01:35:10,321 --> 01:35:12,881 What's there for me? I don't fucking know. 807 01:35:15,721 --> 01:35:17,801 I thought that if I succeeded, 808 01:35:20,361 --> 01:35:23,481 she might leave the keys wherever she would like to. 809 01:35:25,121 --> 01:35:25,801 Jurek! 810 01:35:37,441 --> 01:35:39,641 I'm a bit worried, but you know. 811 01:35:44,961 --> 01:35:49,601 You'll do it neither now nor tomorrow, but in a year or two. 812 01:35:51,401 --> 01:35:57,121 Jurek, and if something special happened? 813 01:35:58,721 --> 01:35:59,921 Like what? 814 01:36:00,321 --> 01:36:03,721 Say, she won't come back to you. 815 01:36:05,761 --> 01:36:07,721 Who are you talking to? 816 01:36:09,041 --> 01:36:10,121 You'll start drinking then. 817 01:36:11,601 --> 01:36:13,041 Well, Jerzy? 818 01:36:14,441 --> 01:36:17,121 You are leaving this place again. 819 01:36:18,521 --> 01:36:20,761 You will leave this place on your own 820 01:36:20,961 --> 01:36:24,601 because we have given you a new lease of live, 821 01:36:25,561 --> 01:36:28,121 I don't even know which time in a row. Do you remember which time? 822 01:36:30,001 --> 01:36:34,281 Jerzy, I have a question for you. 823 01:36:37,721 --> 01:36:39,761 When you leave this place... 824 01:36:56,201 --> 01:36:58,161 This time it will be different. 825 01:36:58,841 --> 01:37:00,481 This time it will be different. 826 01:37:19,601 --> 01:37:20,721 Take care. 827 01:37:39,441 --> 01:37:41,161 She hasn't come to pick you up, has she? 828 01:37:55,401 --> 01:37:56,921 What about Cracovia? 829 01:37:57,241 --> 01:37:58,801 They're playing today. 830 01:37:59,161 --> 01:38:02,521 - Who with? - I don't know. Legia? 831 01:38:03,961 --> 01:38:05,281 Which place are they on? 832 01:38:08,041 --> 01:38:09,041 Where are we going to? 833 01:38:12,961 --> 01:38:14,921 Good question.